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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Judging and evaluating

my 69th post!hahaha...nice... and my web counter has passed 2600!!nice...hahaha....pretty good for a personal blog!

I knew a boy, this boy had lots of friend, and he is friendly to them. This boy unfortunately had one weakness.. He talks to much. He thought he only had that weakness, and without that he thought that he was perfect. He live his day assuming he was the most worthy man between his friends, so sometimes he mocks his friend for things they done.

The boy acts like he was the bos, and saw their friends as if they were nothing, they were low life creatures. then one day he was talking to his friend, arguing about how others were so stupid, immature and foolish. His friends then calmly said, "you can't just say that, you can't say everyone is like you..." the boy didn't really understand what his friend said. what he thought was his friend says that he is a 'super human', he thought his friend said that no one was like him.

Than one night the boy asked his friends what does they think of him, the boy wanted to be praised, complimented by his friends. but sadly some of his friends oppinion was...

"you like to mock us!''

"you think too highly of yourself!"

"you are too proud of yourself!"

"youre a ********"

and things like that. His friend thought that he was so too proud that he was already blinded by pride, he didn't realise where he stands. that night he was so shocked....
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(let me try posting in full english..)

shocked? so do I... I was once a perfectionist... I always wanted all my work perfect, wanted it all good... wanted more all the time... in my oppinion that time, If I can't be the best, then I'm useless, if i'm useless, why should I live? at that time I depend on God, I thought I was religious always having God to help me all the time... but around six months ago, I realise that I wasn't religious... in fact I was trash... I didn't depend on God, I always ask him, I 'enslave' him, I always have God to do my works, and that made me trash... I realise That being perfect is impossible, I can't but still,, I can do my best...

for the last six months I have been asking to myself, am I a good person, since maybe some of you knew that I do have big problems with my mouth, and still I try every single day to fix the way I speak. and yes it has showed a good development, though it is so minim.... I wanted to behave better, think better, and speak better... and I ask God that he will lead me in His way, whatever it is...

Every two or three months I always ask two or three friends about how I behave,, I mean like, was I mean, was I impollite, was I unappropriate? I started this evaluating thing quite long, and it helped me stay on my ground, it helped me know my mistakes and helped me grow.. but still, I have a long way to go...

Many people likes to judge others. just like the boy on the story. They speak about others just as they think others are. They judge them alltime. I was also like that. people judge others and they act like they're right, and others don't, and so are others, others think they're right and we are not. So if that happen, which side is right?

what I wanna say is,, try judging ourself before judging others... in my dictionary it is called evaluating, evaluating ourself... ask others what they think about you, whatever the results, just listen, and recall about the things you've done, be truthfull to yourself, are the things they said about you RIGHT or NOT... in my experience yes, and it was a shame to realise what I was...then ask yourself do you want to change? if you do, work on it!

while you're working on it, now think, does judging others have any good effects on you? if yes what are the effects? I wanna know... If not, then why should you judge others... note that judging others and telling people how they behave are different.

Do you remember how Jesus answer when some men brought a protistute (I can't find a good word) to Him? what did he answer? well the point is, if we are 100% holy, then we are right to judge others and to punish others, if we are not 100% holy, then don't punish others.. even Jesus who is 100% holy didn't punish that woman, then why should we? let all matters be judge only by The Lord, only He who knows what is right and wrong...

Psalm 96 verse 13,, they will sing before the LORD, for he comes,
he comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness
and the peoples in his truth.

don't judge others, it is God's work, but if you find someone doing bad, still you can't remind them of what they've done,, we can remind them, tell them, but we have no right to judge God's creation....

"Only God can Judge us now" (Tom Cruise, Valkyre)

sincerely yours,,
bhea that is wondering what sincerely meant....