Helheim

I made this poem slama nunggu msuk kerja tadi pagi.. Took me time to look up the vocabularies..hehehe..

Awake in the middle of nowhere..
Alone in the midst of emptiness..
I am no one to be called,,
I am someone to be forgotten..
Where can I go when all visible are dusts of sorrow? And where would I be when all ways lead to helheim?
Should I cross to that place? Let my flesh rot before it is burnt?

I see idols worshiped by dogs and goddess praised by perverts.. I hear abbadon came, taking all souls that he could take,, I smell the scent of blood, painted all directions eyes could lay..
This is hell, this is helheim..

Many way to enter but no way out.. The curse has been laid.. Forever trapped in the field of torture and torment.. Where peoples eyes could only see hatred and peoples heart could only beat savagery.. This is our destination.. This is helheim..

I was joking..

Do you know what is hell? Hell is waking up when the sun rises and you have no place to go, no one to trust, no friend to hold.. That is hell.. That is helheim..

The Ending Seasons

I realize that mourning would just trouble me more
I know staying bellow the falling leaves is useless
I feel my head so light, seemed like nothing inside
I go away, continuing my life towards the cold winter

Somehow the winter isn't as cold as it should be
The icy winds didn't made me tremble and shiver
The cold pathway didn't seemed to scare me again
I walk easily crossing by the falling ice crystals

The Spring came way much sooner than I expected
The beautiful flowers didn't amaze my thirsty soul
The sweet smell of honey didn't captivate my lust
I pass all the flowerbeds, laughing all my way out

The Summer somehow shines brighter, it burns me more
The intense sun burns me straight through my skin
The laughing kids seemed to mock me while I walk
I can't face it anymore, the heat burns my heart

I can't
I can't face it
I can't face losing you, my precious one

I can't
I can't lie to my feelings
I can't believe how much I have been gone, I have been lost

Sincerely yours,,
bheaaaa

The Next Seasons

As I am frozen alone in the middle of nowhere
I remembered the falling days of autumn
I recalled the sweet memories of summer
I recollect the precious moments of spring

And as I let myself die in the pits of winter
The warm wind blew, and so the ice melts
The warm wind blew, my heart regains it's life
I'm back once again in a place I once stand

I travel back through all the days of spring
I run to the unforgettable moments of summer
I rushed to the uncountable times of autumn
I reached the end of the seasons once more

I gaze the horizon, seeking where my heart lies
I stare at the clouds, asking where she could be?
I looked at the leaves, looking for any single trace
I fell, fell down on my knees, praying for all my sins

I fell,
I fell down,
I fell as my heart mourns, longing for another chance

I fell,
I fell quietly,
I fell as my soul screeches, crying out, " forgive me dear"

sincerely yours,,
bhea who mourns for his own death

The Seasons of My Life

We walked together at the beginning of spring
See the flowers bloom across the wide field
We swore an oath that time, promising our love
and so we danced all around, in the joy of spring

We finally reached the sunny days of the hot summer
See the kids laughing and gladly running around
We believe that we would never ever be apart again
and so we hold our hands tight and say words of love

We continued together to the falling leaves of autumn
See the falling leaves had rot and the trees are bald
We realize that what we felt weren't love anymore
and so I left and promise you, "I will be back my love"

I travel to the endless windy winter, so cold, so empty
See the snow as I walk, weakening myself in my steps
I understand it is hard for me to come back anymore
and so I stay, stay alone in the pits of the cold winter

I froze,
I froze alone,
I froze so far that she couldn't find me

I froze,
I froze my heart,
I froze without any trace, I am lost in the deep snow~

sincerely yours,,
bhea freezing in the pits of the winter

Me and My Faith

Siapakah yang bisa menghakimi dan menilai iman kita?

Siapakah yang bisa menyatakan siapa benar dan salah?

Siapakah yang dapat mengetahui rahasia segalanya?

Rahasia dari smua permainan hidup kita ini?

Siapa?

Aku tak tahu, dan aku tak mau tahu..

Manusia takkan ada yang dapat mengetahui apa kebenaran itu..

Manusia takkan bisa menebak apa yang ada dibalik kartu itu..

Manusia takkan mampu menerka apa yang ada dibalik permainan ini..

Aku pun sama..

Aku pun tak jauh berbeda..

Aku tak bisa menentukan siapa yang benar, dan siapa yang salah..

Aku tak dapat mengungkap segala hal yang kan terjadi..

Aku tak mungkin menyimpulkan apa yang tak kuketahui..

Aku merasa mereka diluar sana salah, tetapi semakin ku mendalami gelombang kehidupan aku sadar, aku tak juga benar..

Aku rasa keyakinan kita yang tlah berpisah takkan bisa menyatu, kita tlah berjalan terlalu jauh dalam keyakinan masing-masing..

Siapakah yang dapat menghakimi iman?

Manusia telah mempermainkan iman seperti mainan anak kecil..

Manusia telah mempertaruhkan iman dalam permainan kartu..

Manusia telah melemparkan iman mereka, dan takkan mereka dapatkan lagi..

Sincerely yours,,
Bhea

Storms Comin'

berhubung gw termasuk anak2 kampung yg suka ikut-ikutan tren jadi gw pgen post 1 buah puisi instan ttg angin puting beliung britama yg barusan terjadi di lippo dan daerah sekitar...

The Storms Comin...

I see the clouds up above
so dark, so cold, so lost

I feel the wind blows so strong
and the rain drops so hard

The rain will never stop and
The lightning won't go away

The Storms comin...

My ground has been shakened
My strength has been blown

I'm afraid to see, to gaze the sky
I'm just too scared to believe

The sky roared with might
and I'm left alone with my fright

The Storms comin...

Don't know why..
Don't know how..
I do not know what is happening...

but I know,, the storm is coming...

sincerely yours,,
bhea yg lagi payungan...ela..ela...ela...